Her fight was never abstract. She fought for Hugo and Eloise, who were sixteen and fourteen when they lost her, for her husband, for friends, and for strangers who reached out in fear. She also fought quietly for herself—for the life she loved and the memories she was determined to make. Even as stage 4 bowel cancer stripped away comfort and normalcy, her humor became a weapon and her honesty a shield. By sharing her experience openly, she made others feel less alone, prompted vital conversations, encouraged people to seek medical help, and saved lives. Amid advocacy, she remained herself—laughing loudly, wearing bright dresses, and squeezing joy from days that were shrinking.

The decline came anyway—first slowly, then all at once. Treatments failed, pain returned, appointments multiplied, and fear thickened the waiting rooms. When hospice was mentioned, Deborah absorbed it calmly. “Mum, I don’t want them to be scared,” she said. “Promise we’ll keep things light.” Even facing death, she wanted warmth and laughter around her family. The last days carried a gentleness: more sleep, quieter words, brief moments of startling clarity as she held my hand and spoke of her children and the love she wanted to follow them through life.

Then came the final morning, wrapped in an unbearable stillness. I held her hand, remembering her newborn fingers, and whispered, “It’s okay, sweetheart. You can rest now.” She exhaled softly—a breath that felt like both surrender and release—and slipped free. Now grief arrives without clean lines, in waves that vary in strength. I keep going because reminders of her are everywhere: her laugh in Hugo’s jokes, her determination in Eloise’s expressions, her vibrancy in ordinary moments. I keep going because she taught me how—to find purpose in suffering and joy even in darkness.

I often return to the day she was born, holding her tiny body and believing it was the beginning of everything. Holding her hand at the end felt like another profound privilege—a full circle of devotion. “I brought my daughter into the world, and I took her out of it,” I whispered, not as tragedy but as completion. Deborah lived vibrantly and courageously, and her legacy lives on—in the lives she saved, the advocacy she inspired, and the love that continues to ripple outward. The value of a life is not measured in years, but in impact, bravery, and love. By those measures, her life was immeasurably vast.